Tuesday, March 18, 2014

All in my head

Hi guys! I have a lot to talk about but this week is already so crazy for me. It used to be just work&fam but now i have a relationship to take care of too.

This past two weeks I've learnt that when you are in a relationship, its not just you. You gotta think of the other person, you gotta share your life, you gotta be open and thoughtful and kind. You have to think before you speak, you have to be careful because you are dealing with someone Else's feelings. Phew! Honestly it is a bit much.
See I'm a workaholic. Ive been taking care of so much since i was 16.  I have two jobs right now and i work 14 hours a day, 6 days a week. Besides that, i still have to help out with my Lil niece and nephew at home. At the end of the day or my free time all i freaking want to do is SLEEEEEEPP! I want to eat and sleep! I don't want to be on the phone, I don't want to go out. I just wanna sleep so my batteries are recharged for the long day tomorrow.
I don't know how to put on makeup. My hair is always up in a messy bun and my wardrobe consists of different kinds of medical work scrubs and sneakers. When I'm free(rarely) i just want to kick back and watch a kdrama or Castle or Disney channel with my niece. I cant use my phone at work but im allowed computer privileges. They have all the chat sites blocked including all social networks.lol.

You like someone, You really like them...but that's not enough. They say someone who cares about you will make time to see you right? What if that person works 6 days a week, 14 hour a day and just loves to sleep and sit in the house when shes free because shes so tired? Is that a deal breaker?
Long distance relationship was so much easier...

I hate driving. He lives an hour away. He offers to come to me but I'm at work or i just really want to sleep. Getting dressed for a fancy outing just has my body screaming, NOOOOOOOO! I'm just like ARRRRRRRGGGGHHHH!!!!!!
I really didn't think this through...maybe I'm not ready. I mean I've been single all my life. Maybe i should leave it that way. Maybe i love sleep more. Or maybe i should get off my butt and make time for this angel God has sent to me... Maybe I need to do better... Maybe I'm just rambling... Maybe just maybe Leona is slowing losing it... ARRRRRGGGGGHHHHH